10 Things

Since everyone is posting things about the New Year and all the people they appreciate, I figured I would do something similar. Here is a more personal post from me; 10 things I'd like to say to 10 different people... except I'm too much of a pussy to actually do it. I (probably) won't admit anything, but feel free to guess - I know you'll try anyways.


1. I'm glad you moved here and that I met you; I've found a friendship in you that I highly value. Thanks for always being on my side, and sticking with me through all the difficult times.

2. I've always thought you were a pretty cool person, and you've been a great friend in the past, but recently you've been getting on my nerves. Maybe it's those really bad jokes, or maybe it's the fact that you always say unnecessary things that hurt.

3. We have our differences. We have our very many differences. And one huge thing in common. I hope someday we can both put everything behind us and maybe even be friends. I'm ready to. Are you?

4. I think you are probably the most random person I know. You are hilarious without even trying. Thanks for all the help and advice you've given me with my silly problems. You, on the other hand, are such complex person. Sometimes I wish I knew what you were thinking... or how you were feeling. I wish I knew how to make you feel better, since you're always able to do that for me. You're a great person - I wish you could see that about yourself.

5. Why can't I ever do anything right in your eyes? I miss how things were before.

6. You've truly been a good friend to me. I've known you since way back, but we haven't really bothered much with getting to know each other until this year. Thanks for always caring about me; thanks for always setting me straight; thanks for always lending an ear and a helping hand.

7. I miss you.

8. I'm sorry I haven't been the greatest of friends. Okay, scratch that. I'm sorry I've been such a bitch. But you must realize how hard it was to tolerate someone such as yourself. I'm glad that I've become aware of how wrong I was before it was too late.

9. Although I've long since moved on, there is still no way I can really ever fully recover from everything you've put me through. I wish you knew how much you hurt me, and I wish you could feel the same pain. But in the end, I guess, all this bullshit you put me up to made me a stronger person. You're in my past now... and I hope you know I'll always still love you no matter how much I hate you.

10. Maybe it was a mistake. Just a small, silly mistake. So if it's so small then why do I feel like it was such a big deal? Why can't I stand thinking or talking about you? Why do I want to pretend that I never knew you or had anything to do with you?


I'll most likely make another post later on tonight... I wonder how long I can keep this whole blogging thing up.